Being lost is never fun...

I feel lost and I can't find a way out. I missed the exit and it doesn't look like there will be another exit on the road I am currently travelling; I can't turn back, I won't retry anything.

I'm just lost.

Amazingly nice :-)

You're very nice. You're very friendly, smart and oh, you're soooo sexy. ;-) That smile of yours... I want to take a picture of it so I can look at it 24/7!

Oh my, who would have thought? I didn't even want to go and then... I nearly got into a fight with my dad, so I went. And then you came into the room... and I was so glad that my dad won :-)

Thank you destiny :-)

Nix Neues...

von daher... ein Clip meiner Lieblingsszene aus TBBT ;-) mit spanischem Untertitel...

Ich liebe es, wie Leonard guckt, wenn er fragt: "D'you think?" *.*
Und wie er fragt: "How did she know it was us?" lol

Everyone: Samstags, 14.10 Uhr Pro7 einschalten ;-)

Quotes

The irish were back...

Ad (talking about his brother): Have you seen him sleeping on the bench last night? outside? He looked himself out. That fecking ejit!!
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Roy to Rob: Pose, bitch!
Rob poses...
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me shortly before leaving: Rob? Could you pose for me?
Rob poses again...
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Roy: I was so drunk last time, I don't remember anything...
me: Oh, that will upset my friend. The things you've done with her... ui ui ui
Roy turning red: Oh god! I'm sorry
(after two minutes I start laughing)
me: I was only joking. You were good and didn't do anything, apart from playing and singing.
Roy: Singin?? Oh god, I'm even more sorry now!
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Ad repeated line to my friend: I'm sorry for spilling my drink on your jeans.
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Ad: Talking very fast in his irish accent
me: Sorry... come again?
Ad: Talking very fast again...
me: Sorry... just keep drinking, maybe I'll understand you later. wink
He kept drinking and at the end of the night, I understood everything he said
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No distance left to run

Its over... you don't need to tell me.
I hope you're with someone who makes you feel safe in your sleeping tonight.
I wont kill myself, trying to stay in your life.
I got no distance left to run.

When you see me, please, turn your back and walk away.
I dont want to see you, 'cause I know the dreams that you keep is wearing me...
When your coming down, think of me here.
I got no distance left to run.

Its over, I knew it would end this way.
I hope you're with someone who makes you feel that this life is the night
and it settles down, stays around, spends more time with you.
I got no distance left to run

-by blur-

I miss you J.E.F.S. But it's better this way. I hope she'll make you happy.
As Morrissey sung: "One day goodbye will be farewell" :'(

Spare blur ticket!

Heya everyone - I have a spare blur ticket for their gig at London Hyde Park on July 3rd (a Friday).

Anyone interested in it or knowing someone who might be? I'd give it away for a dinner or a decent british breakfast ;-)

Text me, or comment or... do... something.

I'm off!

Off to Ireland for the weekend - don't call, I won't answer ;-)

weekend at the pub...

me: What's your name?

Guy: *muffles his name that sounded a bit like 'DARA'* but you can call me anything you want...

me: Can I call you "Dara"?

Guy: NO!!

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DJ: Do you speak english?

me: No, sorry, I'm not able to understand a single word of what you're saying. Anything else I can help you with? ;-)

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...to be continued when I caught up all the sleep I missed this weekend... *yawn*

I wish it was me...

But I'll get by without your smile
And I'll get through without you

But I wish it was me you chose
I wish it was me you chose
(...)

You, me
Maybe we we're never meant to be
(...)

[Scouting for girls - Elvis ain't dead]

@ Murmel, Kat. and Seagull

regarding picture of Irish and me online:
I KNOW! We're looking ace on it, don't you think? ;-)

Yeah... about my phone... well.. T-Mobile missed to tell me an important thing. They told me after I asked them where my fecking phone is. Tell you later by person, if you want. Well, I'll have to go to the mobile-store tomorrow or saturday to get a new phone. Wankers!

Something else I should tell you? Hm... why didn't it work out to send a text to my mums phone? Were you typing in chinese? russian? or worse... GERMAN!??? ;-) Only joking, luv.

Okay, gotta go, lunch break is nearly over... :-(

And it's turning out to be a good day :-)

After all...

It wasn't such a shit day, after I helped my brother at his restaurant. After work we talked a lot and I found out a lot of things about my brother I didn't know. I'm glad he confided in me. I reckon, we're friends again. And this feels bloody ace! :-)

and: -2 days until I'm going to pick up Oliver with my mum :-)

D'you know what I mean?

There are some days when you wake up and think: "I shouldn't get up today... it just doesn't feel right" but you do it anyway.

- You get into your car and it won't start... poor James is knowing what is coming to him, but I can't change it now, can I?

- You miss two trains for work and arrive an hour late, when you finally made it to the station, to FINALLY get a train.

- You go to work and you think "Okay, today is going to be ace!" because you have an appointment with a great friend of yours to go to the pub after work.

- You are at work and the first thing that happenes after you started working: your glasses brake!! You can't see shit without them, so you manage to mend them a little, so that you can at least work.

- You go to lunch with your colleague, saying "I won't eat a lot, because I'm going to the pub tonight!" and you eat just something so your stomach shuts the fuck up!

- You go back into your office after lunch to receive a phone call some hours later by your great friend saying, that she can't make it to the pub and that she's really really sorry.

- You feel stalked.

- Your colleague has an "early leave" day (again!) and you sit there feeling like shit, because you don't have a child or someone else at home who needs you, which is the reason why you don't give a shit about anything that SHOULD matter to you.

- You realise, that you should be more cruel! You should be more "Fuck off" and "Would you mind leaving me alone, please?". You can't be everybodys darling! You don't have to be!

You will never be!

But all you can think of aaaaaaaaaaall day long... acutally is: "Fucking hell, I should have stayed in bed today... this just doesn't feel right"

Aufräumen...

Ich räume gerade meinen Rechner im Büro auf und habe folgendes gefunden:

" She lies on the bed with her hands in her head and she screams
He gets a kick out of losing the plot so it seems
He makes you all laugh so she's the one doing harm
But how can you fight when she's not the one under his arm

Mascara läuft über ihre Wangen und sie zittert wie Espenlaub. Aspen… Snowboarden… Schnee… Koks… sollte sie vielleicht… nein, hinweg böser Gedanke! Keine Drogen. Sie hatte schließlich für ihn mit allem aufgehört. Sogar mit dem rauchen!

These dreams have let you down
Take it don't break it just turn it around
These dreams won't let you down

Sie nimmt den Telefonhörer in die Hand und wählt die Nummer ihres besten Freundes Dan. Als er antwortet klingt er gut gelaunt.

Dan: "Hey, alles klar?"
Sie: "Dan? Er hat Schluss gemacht. Gerade eben am Telefon…"
Dan schweigt eine gefühlte Ewigkeit, dann sagt er: "Wie geht es Dir?"
Und sie fängt wieder leise an zu weinen.

You never stopped loving his misfortunate lazy ways
All the memories that you should've had are a cabaret haze
There's just a hole where you know he should've been
There's no one worse off than you when you can't descride what you've seen

Sean: "D'ya wanna know, why I wan' you to tell 'im about ya feelin's?"
sie: "'cause ya still luv me?"
Sean: "'cause I already go' me a new girlfriend…"

Where do you go when you're all alone in your bed
Do you cry in your sleep 'cos it's better unsaid
Have you forgotten you're past because that's how it seems
Is it too hard to think? so you edit your dreams
And play them back again and again

Seit dem sind 6 1/2 Jahre vergangen und sie denkt noch immer sehr oft an ihn. Bei jedem noch so kleinen britischem Wort zuckt sie zusammen und schaut sich nach ihm um. Doch er ist nicht da. Er wird auch nicht zurück kommen. Er ist jetzt mit ihr glücklich.

These dreams have let you down
Take it don't break it just turn it around
These dreams won't let you down

Und sie? Sie traut sich nicht, ihrem besten Freund zu sagen, was sie damals für ihn (ihrem besten Freund) empfunden hat. Sie traut sich nicht, ihn zu fragen, ob er weiß, wie es Sean geht. Sie traut sich nicht, endlich los zu lassen...

You've got tomorrow."

I thought she said that to comfort me...

But I do believe her, though.

I told her about how I felt lately and she said: "Don't worry, that's totally normal."
me: "Really? I thought I'm some kind of freak"
she: "No, really. To be honest it's quite good that you feel this way. Some people will never experience that"
me: "Oh, can I switch lives with them?"
she: "Believe me, you wouldn't want that. You'll get bored soon."

I like my therapist. She's amazing :-)

:-)

Alex said (here):
"It's going to be like getting the A-Team back together for a job. We've got to bust [drummer Dave] Rowntree out of law school."
Alex James confirms that Blur will be reforming for live shows.
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Rooney's more stupid than I thought!! *I can't stop laughing after reading it here*
"In July footballer Wayne Rooney expressed his devotion to his favourite band Stereophonics by getting a tattoo done. The prominent tattoo, on the inside of his right forearm, reads 'Just Enough Education To Perform', the title of the band's 2001 Number One album. "

Is it just me or do you think this is just toooo funny??
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Commercial brake! Advertisment! Publicity! Call it what you want...

But have a listen to that, please!
It's my former myspace-friend James with his mates!

Let me know what you think ;-)

Bolloooooooocks!

Deep down inside I know that there is something... missing.
I feel desperate! I feel left alone - although I don't want to see my friends. I feel misunderstood - although I'm not saying anything.

I just feel shit! I wish there was something I could do about it, but I don't know what!

Any suggestions? Should I join a martial-arts-course? The army maybe? What? What?

Argh - never mind... I'm out for dinner and cocktails tonight with my former colleagues, let's see if anything nice happens.

Oh, and just as I found someone to come and see Travis with me (who are doing Frankfurt on Feb.9), I call the place of the gig just to be told, that it's sold out. :-(

At least I have my tickets to see Kaiser Chiefs on Feb.10...

Mustn't stare!!

It's quite weird... There must be something wrong with me! This can't be normal!!

Aaaaaaah! I KNOW! James is ace! :-D


Jeremy: "James! Go away!"
James: "I can't stand that"

Jeremy and me :-)

Jeremy Clarkson improved my style of swearing... this morning.

Normally, as soon as I see a total nutcase on the street, not knowing which way to go and not using indicators when stopping in the middle of the road, I use the c-word or at least the f-word followed by a quite furious "bastard". I also like to call them tosser or slag, but not this morning...

What I shouted, you ask?

Custard!

It's the c-word and bastard brought together. Isn't it nice? Noone will ever notice, unless you're Jeremy Clarkson, his wife or someone reading this very text ;-)

THE List

Okay, since this year started not that nice (feeling sick and all), I decided to do a list. Yes, a list. What list? Guess!!

I'm going to write a "Things to do before I die" list!
Who's with me? I'm not going to share mine online, though. I'm going to do it old-school like, write it by hand and keep it with me all the time :-D

I'm going to start right away!