No no no...

I can't really write what I'm thinking currently, as you may think of me a stupid cow or a silly teenager (which apparently I'm not... a teenager, that is), but, how is it possible that a single person can make me so fricking confused in only ONE second by saying something I might have recognised anyway in a few days' time?

Why does it hurt? I mean, it didn't hurt as much as the last time, but still. I haven't seen him in one fricking year, four months and a day (to be precise!) but I'm still sitting here, thinking of him and... cry over him!?

Why can't I just realise that I'm too good for him? That he's not worth a single thought of mine? That he's not even worth it to be mentioned by me!? I know (by facts) that he's not giving a tiny rat's ass about me, so why do I care?

I have what I wanted, actually. Someone who's really interested in me; in me as a person! Who makes me feel good whenever we speak, whenever we see each other, who really cares about me in a way, that noone did in a long time. Someone who tells me "you're too good for him, anyway!". Why do I just relised now, in this second, that this someone is right. I AM too good for him.

As I'm thinking about it, I'm actually quite happy.

Happy to have met someone, finally. Someone who's there. Someone I can laugh with, who shares the same sense of humour as I do and who's not looking a bit funny at me when I say something that's totally out of context.

Thank you for that, my friend. :-)
You finally got me over him!