Never again

I swore that to myself. Never again will I say things like: "I'm never going to talk again" or "I'm never going to eat again" and "I'm never going to wear any other than black again" and now? What am I doing?

Lying on my couch since Friday, sleeping on it, not eating (much), crying (a lot), watching movies and series he left me and listen to loovie-doovie-movie-music!!

I hate being like that! I hate being love sick! And I hate that he didn't call or send a message or anything since he left!!! Not even for telling that he arrived home!! Not even a text!! What's happening??

~+*EDIT*+~
True love is...
when you shed a tear and still want him
when he ignores you and you still love him
when he loves another and you still smile
when all you really do is cry, cry and cry
So tell me... do you love another?